Now is the winter of my discontent

I am here.  Here I am.  I have arrived.  BACK in Virginia. The trip up was uneventful (thank God) with a nice overnight visit in Savannah where I was able to walk around.  Wait I already talked about this.  Never mind.

Well after Savannah I drove on up.  Took about 9 hours.  I pee a lot, therefore I stop a lot.  But no one is with me to bitch about it so there’s that.  I was not sad this time about leaving Florida, I thought a lot about my next book as I was driving, you know because I had allloott of time in the car with my thoughts.  I did listen to a book on tape and just like my last trip I have left the characters in the middle of the story so now I have to make several day trips to finish the book to know who done it.  I don’t think about moving back to Florida now.  It’s almost like it was a dream.  I still have my tan and a couple of reminders of my time there, actually a lot of reminders of course but unlike the last time I came to Virginia (which was only a month ago) I have no immediate plan to go back for anything other than to drive my photo albums back up north and that may be next year.  I’m in a much different frame of mind.

So the start of my next book was sounding good in my head when of course my world bottomed out…again, but this time not just my world, like millions of people’s world.  I can’t possibly be a blogger without mentioning the election and since I’m a blogger and blog about my feelings and my life well I’m going to blog about the election.

I cried.  I was sick.  I was stunned.  I was horrified.  I cried some more.  I know I’m a cry baby but this is something else.  And I’m obviously not alone in my horror.  The weather here yesterday was perfect for the mood, it was rainy, it was grey, it was chill to the bone cold (well cold for me), I felt beat up, I felt despondent, I felt exhausted.  I did not vote for Trump.  I do not hate him, I just felt he was a non-entity and there was no way that someone who is apparently so hateful, ignorant, divisive, bigoted, misogynist would get elected.  A friend of mine, a staunch Republican said that going into the polls she didn’t know what to do.  She hates Hillary but no way did she want Trump to win.  She shared that in the end she voted for Trump because she wanted to send Hillary a message that not everyone loved her.  She too thought it would be a landslide win for Hillary.  So she said now all we can do is pray.  I’m not gonna lie, I don’t love Hillary, but I don’t hate her either.  As a matter of fact I was a little pissed at myself for not voting for Gary Johnson, and mad at the statement made by Obama that a vote for Gary Johnson (or any other candidate) was a vote for Trump.  I thought how dare he say that when we should vote for who we want.  But in the end, I do believe he is right.  All the Gary Johnson votes could have put Hillary over the top.

But that’s not what happened.  And now, after a day, and because I do tend to be positive in the throws of despair, here’s what I’m thinking.

Trump is a non-entity, and by that I mean he really doesn’t know who he is, he is not developed.  But he knows how to get a crowd’s reaction.  He knew that the “good” people of the earth (tongue in cheek here) were not going to vote for him.  The only people’s vote he could get were the haters so he fed into that.  I don’t think any of us knew there were so many haters in the world.  A LOT of people hate Hillary and so so many hate Obama.  I mean haters have to hate I guess.  But what if this happens…What if he’s able to turn the haters into likers.  He has already backed down from “lock her up” (maybe) complimenting Hillary on a hard fought battle.  He spent 90 minutes with Obama today and they both came out with love in the air. He seems to have already humbled a bit…I’d say a lot.  As we all know from the campaign and just years of Trump in the media he changes his mind, and what he says, every other day.  I want to believe that he’s not as effed up as he has been portraying.  I want to believe that a clearer head is going to prevail.  I want to believe that he will repeal Obamacare and then replace it with something better!  I have benefited from Obamacare but there is no doubt it is effed up and I have only benefited because I am poor, like poverty poor.  It is not good for anyone else.  So it does need an upgrade.   That’s just one example. I’ve read over his 100 days list (what he’ll do in office his first 100 days) and if it’s anything that we’ve learned from Obama years is that NOTHING gets done that fast and he can do next to nothing on his own.  How many people in Congress will approve that stupid wall? That’s just crazy talk.

I think, I hope, he’s going to back way the fuck down from so much of this.  I think he’s already humbled and thinking “holy shit, what do I do now” – I think that’s been the basis of his whole campaign, shock and surprise.  I think he’s been shocked and surprised that he got as far as he did and I think now he’s wondering WTF do I do now. He clearly did not expect to win or he wouldn’t have been preaching about the rigged election. He knows he doesn’t know what to do but now he has to perform in a big way.  This is NOT a TV show. I think that’s why he spent so much time with Obama, I think that’s why he said he looks forward to spending more time with Obama.  I think he has a really really good opportunity to bring his haters around.  If he can get his haters to look at Obama in a different light just imagine how he really might be able to unite the country.  One thing for sure is we will never be united until the haters and us sane people can get along. What if he is the one that can do that by accident?

What if?

In the meantime it is causing all of us to look more at what is going on in our world, to get our heads out of the sand and realize how much hate is around us, for the haters to show who they are and for all of us to become activists for our own country.  Maybe some states will end up seceding after all. (now that I’m a southerner) Maybe there’s no reason why we can’t.  Maybe Steve Berry is right in his book “The Lincoln Myth” that there is no constitutional reason that states can’t secede from the union.  Maybe that will happen.  Who the hell knows, but something is happening.  And it’s big.  And nobody is gonna care about my storage unit, the fact that I’m cold already in front of the fire, or that I’m getting my last credit card cut off.  We now have bigger fish to fry. One thing for sure though,  he better not mess with my environment because then I’m going to get really angry – I will be in the front of that protest line – I’m homeless I have nowhere else to go – don’t fuck with me.

For now, I’m going to sit back and see how it plays out, see what he backs down from, see how much more back pedaling he may or may not do.  See if he even gets to office on January 20.  After all he has a trial date coming up as well for fraud for Trump University.  And really, does anyone else think that maybe the election really was rigged?  Anybody?

xoxoxo